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at work: "great point sarah! id love to sync on that. lets circle back after i review the RFC. super excited about the direction!"
at home: *stares at wall for 45 minutes in complete silence*
the amount of emotional energy it takes to be a performative corporate human 8 hours a day leaves nothing for actual human connection after hours. i feel like a shell of a person by friday
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"lets circle back after i review the RFC" i physically cringed reading this because i say it 5 times a day and hate myself every time
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this is why i refuse to be corporate at work. i say what i think, dont use buzzwords, and push back when things are stupid. some people think im an asshole but at least im the same person at work and at home
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the staring at the wall thing is real. its called ego depletion. you used up all your social energy performing and now your brain is literally empty. its not laziness its recovery
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remote work fixed this for me honestly. no performance needed on camera-off calls. i can be myself while working. the office version of me was a character i played and it was killing me
